weird thinking

i dont know why...
these few days...
i've been thinking of doing stupid things to myself...
especially today,
right now,
i feel like banging myself into the wall,
or take something to cut myself.
but!
i'm not dumb.
i'll never cut myself.
crazy ah?!
i wont lor...
at most i'll only really bang my head into the wall,
or punch the wall.

ya.

my heart hurts right now.

ouch~