hate how i feel now

i hate this idiot stupid feeling right now.
i dont want to hide things
especially some things
some people

i feel like screaming everything out loud.

but what i need to not to let the whole world know.

just my sis alone.

no matter what,
what ever she thinks really matters to me.

she's my sis.
my only sis.

jiejie...
i know what you are worried about.
i really know...