みんな！ クリスマス おめでとう！

hey there everyone!!!
though ya...
this post is a little late...
but who cares?

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!
大家，圣诞快乐！！！
クリスマス　おめでっとう！！！

so happy this christmas

last night,
christmas eve,
met dann after work
then we went over to xiang min's house
for our "exclusve club" christmas celebration
haha...
though we did nothing much mostly...
just all sit around in the living room
watch movies...
home alone,
i am legend.
had curry rice that xiang min cooked for dinner
talk to ezzat who's at canada
ove msn web cam.
hahaha...

after midnight,
christmas day.
we had some white wine,
(i only drank a sip)
hazelnut logcake.
(oh~ it's nice!)
and we exchanged presents.
haha...
it's weird that first was jessica
who picked the number of jaeson's present,
then her own present.
and when it was my turn,
first i picked my own present
then dann's present.
hahaha...
then xiang min who picked his own present.
ahahahaha.......

for me,
when i bought my present,
i was thinking beside the girls,
if any of the guys were to pick it,
who should it be.
xiang min.
and indeed.
hahahaha...
xiang min gotten my present.

night,
or should i say eary morning,
after exchanging of presents,
was crapping with ezzat a little with merloin.
showered,
then ya.
it was already 2am plus.
trixy's bedtime.
hahaha...

so ya...
i went to sleep...

knock out already.
hahahaha...

morning...
awoken by the some "music"
shall not say in details.
later kena sued.
hahaha

had nasi lemak for breakfast.
super full sia...

after that,
talked alittle around the dinning table
(the guys talked i listen)
(army talk)
then followed by ps2 andyoutube video time
hahh...

went back to dann's house...
watched aladdin!
hahaha...
havent watched that in a very long time.
so nice!!!
hahaha!!!

(oh! oh!)
(just remembered that i'm gonna buy little mermaid dvd this jan!!!)
(if anyone out here hasnt gotten me christmas present, you know what i want))
heehee...

after watchining,
knocked out again.
hahaha...
half an hour.

(sorry jin and hannah)
(that's why i was late)

shower,
had logcake again...

then rush down to larry's house.

seriously...
not that i'm some stupid kuku
that doesnt know how to go his house over so many years,
(though ya i still doent know exactly)
but you seriously cant blame me
EVERYTIME i go his house
EVERYTIME i walk a different road.
so how on earth do you people
expect me to remember how to get there?!

haiz...

anyway...

though did really kinda nothing but eat and drink there,
but later so great.
especially when we started exchanging presents.
super funny sia...

hahaha...

i did not know why
but i was having a feeling that darren would pick mine.
and ya.
he did.
hahaha...
just nice lor...
a snowman mug for a officially snowman guy.
hahaha...

and the 2 born on 13 aug 1989
gotten body shop body wash or something...?

hahaha...

log cakes again...

(will upload video another day)
(though image cant really seen)

they are really "LOG"cake lor...
hard sia~
hahaha...

after eating all these 4 log cakes this year
(actually only eaten 3 different log cakes)
i've decided to buy the one xiang min bought next year.
it taste nice.
hahaha....

and ya.
at larry's house,
there's always majong AND!
alcohol!!!

so after the logcakes
larry's dad came back and all the guys started drinking beer
and followed by red wine.
wait wait wait...
wait for mr darren snowman teh to go home together...
in the end he asked us to go back first.
what sia...

hmm...

come to think about it
if larry didnt had this celebration thingy for us ex-kcpians
i think i wouldnt have talked to evelyn again.

no matter what what,
she's the very first friend that left.
or should i say,
leave me hanging.

oh well,
this christmas is great!

and there's another celebration at outlet!

hahaha...
heard chef will be cooking crab!

wahahaha....
hahaha...

silent

people,
dont bother calling me for the next few days.
my handphone will be on total silent mode
from the point of time i wake up
to the time i go to bed.

wanna find me?
sms me.

if i see it,
i see it.

if i dont,
i dont.

signed,
struggling trixy.

matte imasu

down...

have been lookin at my handphone repeated
times after times
even though i know,
it wont ring.

even if it rings,
it will never be the person i'm waitin for.

and ya.
when it was 1pm,
it did not ring.

after 6pm,
it did not ring still.

after 11pm,
still,
it did not ring at all.

or at least,
not from the person i want most.

i dont know why...
i'm like surrounded with the song
'because of you' today.
sad...
you're really not talkin to me.
normally you'll mms me after gettin your hair done.
(_ _)

how i wish that stars can lead me a road,
show me a way.

Ne-Yo - Because of You

[ Verse 1: ]
Want to, but I can't help it
I love the way it feels
just kinda stuck between my
fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it,
I want it when I don't
Tell myself Ill stop everyday,
knowin that I wont

[ Bridge: ]
I got a problem, and i,
(I don't know what to do about it)
Even if I did, I don't
know if I would quit,
but I doubt it
I'm taken by the thought of it,
and I know this much is true
Baby with you, have become my addiction,
i'm so strung out on you
i can barely move, but I like it

[ Chorus: ]
then its all because of you [ 3X ]
then its all because of you
and then its all because of you
so then its cuz never get enough,
Shes the sweetest drug

[ Verse 2: ]
[ Lyrics found at www.mp3lyrics.org/bJ ]
Think of it every second
i cant get nothing but
Only concern is the next time,
when I'm gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from,
cuz its no good for me
I tried and tried but my
obsession wont let me leave

[ Bridge: ]
i got a problem and i,
(I don't know what to do about it)
Even if I did, I don't
know if I would quit
but I doubt it
I'm taken by the thought of it,
and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction,
im so strung out on you
i can barely move, but I like it

[ Chorus: ]
then its all because of you [ 3X ]
then its all because of you
then its all because of you
so then its all because never get enough,
Shes the sweetest drug

Ain't no doubt, so strung out [ 2X ]
Over you, over you, you hoo hoo whoo


[ Chorus: ]
And its all because of you [ 3X ]
And its all because
Never get enough,
Shes the sweetest drug,
shes the sweetest drug

クリスマス

ひさしぶり！

haha...
just received an email from kojima,
the guy i got to know through the home-stay program the other time.

sometimes we'll send each other emails
like the other time was natsu
when he went for holiday with his friends
and i shared with him about singapore's natsu matsuri.

this time,
he sent an email with photos of a part in fukuoka.
it's like SO PRETTY!!!!
haha...
i wanna go...

stupid attachment...
roar~
there goes my holiday in tokyo coming march...
GONE!
roar~

sadly i only keep in contact with kojima-san
and no longer with hasegawa-san
as the other time we kept emailing each other everyday
that his girlfriend got unhappy, sad.
so ya...
shall not make things bad...
so we stopped emailling each other sinced then.

oh well...
at least i still keep in contact with kojima-san.

and ya people...
i need to go to sleep right now.


good night people!

お休みなさい！

sorry for the small pictures...
but this is what kojima sent me...

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恐惧

当一个人拥有着他自己都想象不到的美好东西时,
就会不知觉的感到害怕。
就两个字, "害怕"。
害怕这得来不易的东西将有可能有一天被夺来走。
这份"害怕"可能就会造成人们去做些就连他自己都无法理解的事,
做出连自己都无法解释的行为。
尤其是那些你越想拥有的东西,
或是人,
你越想拥有它,
你的行为或许就会变得更奇怪,
更是无法用常理来解释。
尤其是受过伤的人,
失去过自己想都没想过有天会失去那某一样东西的人。
他的心中永远都会存在着一道伤口,
永远都会害怕自己最珍惜的东西, 或人,
会有一天被夺走。
他的心灵是很脆弱的。
就算是再坚强,
再乐观的人,
都会害怕那可能一天的到来。
就算这个人多么努力地去相信,
那心中那永远不会么努力的往前方明亮的一方,
隐隐做痛那心中灰暗的伤痕还是会使他退后,
害怕前方的路会消失。
因为,
事事无决对,
每个人都不知道你每走的那一步是否在将来带来光明还是灰暗。
这个人唯一能做的事,
就是去希望现在脚下所走的路是正确的。
他也只能去希望现在所拥有着的幸福不会被夺走。

我不希望我所坚持的幸福,
会有一天得离我而去。
我不知道脚下的路是否正确,
但我希望未来的终点,
有你...

thought of words

"when you get into a relationship"
"you give a part of you to your partner"
"imagine you been through many relationships"
"a bit of you given her"
"a part of you to another person"
"finally in the end"
"you right one will only have a small portion of that whole you"
"and the rest"
"were all given away."